Day 1

Yesterday was Day 1 for us. Day 1 is probably the most difficult thing for a couple going through ferility treatment to hear...it means, we are starting over again. And for a clergy couple, Day 1 coming on a Sunday is really really tough.

There is a wonderful couple in this church who actually gave us the injectible medication that they had left over from having their twins, and as she came through communion, as I saw her...I just couldn't hold back the tears. She came up to me afterwards with tears just rolling down her face and asked this one question: "what day" and I replied, Day 1. She just hugged me and said something I can't even rememeber, but her heart, I knew. And it gave me just a sense again of god's love and care even in the midst of what feels so....I can't even think of a word that adequately describes what it feels like. Words just fail me. Please pray for DG and I as we start this last round. DG is gone to Colorado speaking at a conference this week, so also say prayers for me as I give myself that shots.

Lord, I know that you are with us, and I know in a strange way that you are holding me. Soothing me. Speaking to me even when I cannot hear you. Crying with us. Give us your wisdom and Lord, please be with others who are silently suffering and lead us to show them your comfort and peace in the midst of something that just hurts. We love you. We Trust you even when it hurts.

This photo is one that DG took at the Via Crucis....isn't he just amazing? This picture really kinda sums up hope for me.